Saturday, October 25, 2008

Worst Blogger Ever

I've chosen to not write for the past week. I've thought about it several times, and determined to put it out of my mind until I could sort myself out. Not quite there yet.
I'm not sure what's going on. A separation of mind and belief? I am, for once, caught up on bills. The house is stocked with groceries, and 'stuff'....I even bought myself new glassware & serving bowls for the kitchen. There's cash in my wallet, money in the bank, and more income on the way. The kids are fine. The week with their Dad went well, and I came back to a relatively unscathed home.

The X still has plans to see his daughter on the first of November (has anyone else noticed? That's just a week away!) and is acting strange. Lots of jokey emails, phone calls that last for hours. Last night, he asked to speak to Beena. Never. I've heard him complain about soldiers wives who force the kid on the phone and the soldier is left standing there with no idea of what his child is saying. It was surreal for him to ask, and even more so when I could hear him laughing up a storm at her gibberish.

He wants to take us shopping while he's here to stock up on winter clothes and shoes for her. He wants to put me back on his cell phone plan so that I'll have reliable phone service instead of using a pay as you go phone the way I've done since I left him and he turned off my cell. He's bringing additional money to add to my car fund & is planning on staying in Colorado after he's officially released from duty. (That's a big one...he always wanted to move to the East coast, and I couldn't fathom the idea of being so far away from my family once we were able to choose our location)

If I don't's because I don't know what to write. I feel emotionally challenged right now.
I'm sorry, and I hope you'll forgive me.
It'll get greater later!


~*Liz*~ said...

I just found your blog via Pioneer Woman and I love how you write! I hope you get all these things sorted out in your mind. Can't wait to read more!!


ChiTown Girl said...

Oh, Lord, Girlfriend, my stomach is in knots just reading this. Bring back many memories from the past 14 years...I hope it follows along the way that is best for YOU. I'll be praying for you.

ladyfi said...

Hi! Great to know that you are doing well - even if confused... It sounds as if life is looking up a bit - and the ex is making an effort... Let's hope that it's for real.

And please please don't abandon your blog forever.


ladyfi said...

Just saying HI - hope all is well.

spanki said...

good luck, i know that it is a stressful time! let us know how it goes, you are in our prayers!!